I’m in some kind of limbo. I’m living in New Jersey, and I’m working this job, and everything is pointed at / aligned with the future. I do not want to live in New Jersey. I don’t want to be doing what I’m doing forever. So we’re waiting for the time when we can move and find new jobs and have friends. But in the meantime, everything is passing time.

This is my classic problem. When I was in college I had the same eschatological focus for once I got out. And although it’s a little fuzzier, when I was in high school I thought a lot about getting out and moving on to college. I understand that people have to have hope for the future, that it drives us. But I need to figure out for myself how to better enjoy the meantime. Maybe in the grander scheme my wheels are squealing right before I peel out. (You know me, always trying to work a car analogy into conversation) Maybe I will accomplish all the goals I wish I could accomplish. But that doesn’t change the fact that I need to be here, now.

My last semester in college I had an apartment above the dentist’s office. We would have twister parties, and sing awesome songs. I want a twister party right now.